Living only for God

I seem to find it difficult to keep my focus where it should be. It's sorta like a spiritual ADD or something I guess. He opens a door for me, and I go for it. I start out good, working for God and good things happen. But I become so passionate about it that it consumes me, and instead of my eyes being on God and his purposes, I have focused my eyes on the task at hand. Eventually I identify myself so closely to the task at hand that I cannot seperate the two. I become the task and the task becomes God. I feel like a leach that sucks the glory out of what God is doing sometimes. Not that I openingly say "this is becuase of me", but there is something inside of me that says it is. We have to be so careful! I don't think God's desire is for us to have no joy or have no satisfaction in serving him. It seems to be such a fine line sometimes though. First of all, we need to remember that we don't have to earn our salvation, we don't have to do good things to make it to heaven. From a human standpoint, I think I have worked my whole life to impress people, and I feel like I have to do that with God too, and that is not the case. But I want God to be proud of me you know...? "Well done my good and faithful servant"... That's what I want to hear. To me that verse translated says, "I'm proud of you". So naturally, I want to help my cause so that I can hear that. but there I go again, back to works to try to earn my place. I get that God loves us, and that love is unconditional, but something inside wants me to do more to earn more. Being competitive does not help this situation at all... It seems to be the satisfaction and success of what I do that motivates me to work so hard. I need a perspective change. The love I have for God needs to be my motivation. Doing work to get something back is not God's kind of love. His love is selfless. I suppose we need that we are so spirtually wealthy, that we don't have to do anything, because we have all that we could ever want, but we still work just because we love God. And in addition to this, I probably love God for what he has done for me. that's probably not right either. I mean, he has certainly done enough to earn my love, but should it be like that...? I dont' think so. I think my task is to look at God for who he is, and get to know his person, not his works. I need to fall in love with God on a new level. hmm... interesting... Didn't see this blog ending up this way. lol Thanks God ;)

Hanging by a Thread

I was overwhelmed at lunch today. I was reading in psalms, and I began to think about how fortunate I am to know Christ. Then I began to think how many things their are to throw us off course. God is strict. He is loving, but what is right is right and what is wrong is wrong. The result of any sin; big or small is death. There is one thing and one thing along that helps us escape the result of sin. Salvation through Christ! I had this vision of me hanging over a pit. I was hanging onto a thread. there was a huge amount of area around me, and I could not see the bottom of the pit. All I knew is that I didn't want to go down, and I didn't want to let go of the thread. These are our lives. We hang by a thread. The thread of salvation. It will never break, and it will always be in reach if you want it to be. But it blew me away, that if God wanted to. If he really wanted to, he could cut that thread, and I would be gone forever. Do you have any idea how blessed we really are!!?? I mean really? He has lowered us a line. A life line, literally. And what do we do..? over and over again, we let go of the thread, and then grab a hold again. Some of us even tie the thread around our ankle and go bungee-jumping. Not that it would break, but perhaps the knot that WE tied, isn't quite as secure as we think it is... I have a feeling that if our eyes were opened up, to the pit of death that surrounds us we would think differently. The enemy puts things just at the end of our reach that are tempting. we reach with one hand on the thread and the other for what our flesh desires. He wants us to slip, he wants us to want what he has so much that we will loosen our grip on the thread and fall into the pit. I was clinging so hard to this rope, and I was thanking God so much for it as I gripped harder and harder. It was all I wanted. This sounds like a terrible position to be in, dangling over a pit. but considering the alternative, dangling is much better than falling. It is the best place we can be actually. Totally dependent upon God. Not just, "oh, I'm going to try my best to live for him" No, No.. dependent to point that your life depends on it, because guess what..? It does! I mean seriously... Are you getting this or is it just me? We are completely and utterly useless and dead without what Jesus did on the cross. As much as we mess around, and let go and fall for a bit, before we grab hold. Why doesn't he just cut the line? I certainly don't deserve it. All, I know is that his grace is unmatched, and his mercy is endless. I don't know know how this vision plays out doctrinally. Once saved always saved, predestination or any of that stuff. All I know is that I need Jesus, and so do you. I pray that today you will have an encounter with God that opens your eyes like he did mine.

Restoration

I read in Ezra this morning. What powerful moments there where when the Jews made the trip out of captivity to the time they offered sacrifices when they arrived, and when they finished laying the foundation of the temple. These people had learned lessons of the past, and had their hearts turned toward God. The old wept, and the young shouted for joy at the foundation being completed. Rebuilding/Restoration is a beautiful thing. Yes, it would have been better never to have had to rebuild. It would have been better if the Israelites would have stayed obedient to God. However, they did not. But God, who is full of grace and mercy takes our disobedience (sin) from us, as we humble ourselves before him and blesses the relationship between him and his people. There were no torn clothes, no sack clothe and ashes as they morned for what they and their fathers had done in the past. They new where they came from and they didn't just ignore the bad things of the past, but the time of mourning was over, and the time of celebration was here. It was time to get back to God. they made the sacrifices and worked on there relationship with God. One stone at a time was placed in it's spot. so that they could worship God the way they were commanded. After we accept Christ we are instantly restored, but still continue to improve the temple, to make it strong and beautiful. As we are restored and rebuilt in Christ, we remove the junk out of the way and place a solid foundation down. We should weep and be joyful as the Holy Spirit works in us. Don't stop building the temple. Don't stop at the foundation, but let Christ complete his edifying work in your life.

Ask Him

I read in 2 Kings this morning about Hezekiah. He is one of the few kings of Judah that was devoted to God, before they entered captivity in Babylon . When Hezekiah gets sick Isaiah comes and tells him that he will not recover but he will die from this illness. Isaiah leaves and Hezekiah prays to the Lord asking him to let him live. Isaiah gets a word from the Lord in the courtyard and turns around and tells the king he will live another 15 years. What just happened here?? Don't these words of the Lord conflict agaist each other? Can God not make up his mind? What changed? A prayer changed everything. Hezekiah reminded God (like he forgot or something) that he had lived his life for him. So why did Hezekiah telling God something he already knew change the outcome, and appear to show God changing his mind?? There seems to be an outcome that God has planned if we don't come to him, and an outcome that he has if we do. God is still in total control, because he knows if we will come to him or not before we know it. I think this is sounding really confusing, so I'm sorry. God has more than we can imagine for our lives, and I wonder how many times I could have come to him and great blessing would have been released, instead of suffering through something, or doing it the hard way. God like any good father wants to do things to bless his children. I believe he is eagar for our next break through into heaven. Don't be afraid to ask for something from God. His desire is to always do what is best for you.

Because He Said So

Reading about Elisha this morning 2 Kings 5. This chapter is about Naaman, a man who had leprosy. This was a terrible disease of the time. He hears about Elisha from an Israelite slave woman that was taken captive. He travels to him and Elisha says go into the Jordan river and wash yourself 7 times and you will be healed. Naaman was furious. He could of washed in a river at home, because he thought they were better anyway. Little did he understand, that these were the words of the Lord. And when he speaks what is ordinary becomes extraordinary. Naaman had an idea of what he wanted to happen. He wanted Elisha to come to him and call upon God, and wave his hand over him and he would be healed. He put God in a box, and said you can only move in this way. However God will move in whatever way he chooses to move. We so often hear of something great that has happened and then think, If I do the same thing I will get the same result. That may be true most of the time in the natural, but in the supernatural, I think this is rare. The supernatural world of God is predictable only in the sense that if we listen to God we will succeed in the task he gives us. How that happens is completely unpredictable. God seems to have a lot of fun with this! The point is that we must listen to Him and follow his lead. If Elisha would have done it the way Naaman wanted him to he would not have been healed. fortunately Naaman was convinced that he should wash in the Jordan. He did and he was healed. When God speaks, what is natural becomes supernatural, and we should do it. because he said so...

Open The Floodgates of Heaven

For years I have been singing the song "let it rain". It says: let it rain - let it rain - open the floodgates of Heaven. For years I have encountered God in powerful ways while that song is playing. Nothing special about the words, but the song is really a song of desperation to be in the presence of God. When we desire him and seek him we will find him. We enter into his grace and mercy. While those times of the past were amazing, and at the time I thought I had all that God could dish out in a moments time, however, it was not everything... Along with desire, along with all of our crying out to God. Never have the floodgates been opened more than when I was broken before God. You see, we are the floodgates... The more we hang on to who we are in ourselves the tighter the floodgates are closed. When we are broken, the floodgates are also broken. With a brokenness and a desire for God, you will see what it means to have the floodgates opened up. What I had before was only a splash of water over the floodgate. You are the only thing holding back what God wants to do. Repent. Come to God with no excuse, no explanation. don't pass the blame. Take responsibility and say "I have sinned" You may think, "I really don't want to make myself feel that bad" how can that be good?? When the floodgates are open, there is refreshing. God doesn't just say your forgiven, but he takes us in our rags that we dress ourselves in and our ruin, and he lifts us up, and clothes us in righteousness, and also, all the pressure of being a floodgate is removed. you no longer have to hold back the pressure of millions of pounds of God's grace. It just flows freely, and you too, will flow freely in his presence...

frustration or learning

I have been at a conference the last 2 days and I heard tons of information that I needed to apply. I found myself at times saying to myself "Am I doing anything right?" For a moment I hit a point of frustration, because it seemed like I had so much that needed to b done or changed. but then I remembered who I was surrounded by and the heart of the conference. it is to build up and teach. equip and encourage. to get frustrated would mean that I missed the whole point. after I realized this I was back on track. I know that Gods standards are very high and sometimes we can get frustrated when it feels like we r so far away from where we should b. We must keep the right perspective. just like the conference God wants to equip and encourage. keep striving for perfection and never give up! Proverbs 24:16 says that a righteous man falls 7 times but gets up again. if u have fallen, get up, and if u r up don't be afraid to try just because u may fall again.

I wrote this from my phone so excuse any typos... :) have a great day!